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Hans was a busy, happy, sweet and fearless three year old when he was diagnosed with Neuroblastoma. He fought his disease like a "gladiator" for nearly 6 years. Hans was an animal lover to his core. He was 'guarded' at home by his three cats, Black, Orange and Cotton. He also had his Golden Retriever, Honey, to keep him company. Hans enjoyed swimming, biking, gardening, grilling (he had his very own grill!), horseback riding, playing video games, building Legos, and flipping between Nickelodeon, Cartoon Network and Animal Planet. Hans loved all members of his family and he was a loyal friend. He had to go through a lot of treatment in his life. But Hans powered through it. His attitude was let's get this done! His motivation was always to get back home, to his family, pets, favorite foods and pool.

Monday, October 25, 2010

Four Years


Hans was diagnosed with High Risk Stage IV MycN Amplified Neuroblastoma four years ago today.The funny thing is - I don't really feel like reflecting on it today! I don't think I will.
Usually I go through this whole thing on anniversary. Usually.

But, actually, today things are going well and I'd rather worry about Halloween and raking the yard, and keeping kids on track with their school work and upcoming events! I guess I'd rather look forward today than look back.
Hans is a beautiful boy. His life has never been the same since his diagnosis day. None of our lives will ever be the same. The medicines and procedures used to save Hans' life have caused him some serious harm. But, I believe with all my heart, that Hans would choose to fight for this life over and over. He rolls with his punches. Kids are resilient, and Hans is an incredible kid.
I hope science can keep the docs one step ahead of his disease. My heart is full of so many hopes and prayers that I sometimes feel greedy. My prayers are not just for Hans, but for each of these kids in this fight.

Today we will do home school, I will start on painting my bathroom, we will run some errands, get our girl to soccer and back, eat some dinner, hang out, play Sorry! And we will celebrate the fact that we are all here, all four of us. And I cannot tell you the gratitude and thankfulness in my heart for that fact - just that we are here.

Peace, Love, and Cure,
Lara

12 comments:

The Adkins Family said...

You guys deserve all the happiness you dream of! Glad y'all are focused on the small stuff. Take care!

Ashton Blackman said...

What a beautiful picture both of Hans and his sister but also the one you paint with your words about your life! Made me smile to read.
Always inspired by you,
Ashton

Kim Tyler said...

Beautiful Lara, and we all join in celebrating that your family is together and having some ordinary time just being at home and doing ordinary things. What a gift!

Anonymous said...

We all want to join you in the glorious celebration of life!
Love,
Mom

Anonymous said...

We'll also choose to celebrate life with you! Words can't express how many people you have all touched during this journey your on. Hans and Elle are such amazing kids - so wise for their ages - and such reminders for us all to treasure today.

We love you and proud of you all!
Love G.Kathy & g.Dale XOXO

Anonymous said...

There are no words to match yours, Lara!

May Hans' and his family's zest and joy for life be contagious!

Love and hugs,
Aunt Susy

Our Family said...

You guys have come so far. I love the picture of Hans and Elle. Prayers for all of you--a beautiful post, Lara!
Love,
Bernie

Shannon said...

Wow, you moved me to tears :) I am so happy that your family is where they are! I am so thankful for my family too :)
Love, Shannon

Anonymous said...

Your children are so beautiful!!!!
Bless you and your family!!

Pat K.

Can't wait tell the October 31st pix!

Anonymous said...

Wow! Fantasic post and gorgeous picture. We're so glad you guys are where you are and are enjoying every minute of it all. You are always in our prayers...

The Thweatts

Anonymous said...

Love your post, Lara. Happy you're all having a "normal" day, those days we sometimes take for granted. Puts things in perspective.

Prayers for more, love and hugs,
Aunt Holly and Uncle Michael

Critter, Colleen, Erin and Claire said...

Love you!!!