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Bakersfield, CA, United States
Hans was a busy, happy, sweet and fearless three year old when he was diagnosed with Neuroblastoma. He fought his disease like a "gladiator" for nearly 6 years. Hans was an animal lover to his core. He was 'guarded' at home by his three cats, Black, Orange and Cotton. He also had his Golden Retriever, Honey, to keep him company. Hans enjoyed swimming, biking, gardening, grilling (he had his very own grill!), horseback riding, playing video games, building Legos, and flipping between Nickelodeon, Cartoon Network and Animal Planet. Hans loved all members of his family and he was a loyal friend. He had to go through a lot of treatment in his life. But Hans powered through it. His attitude was let's get this done! His motivation was always to get back home, to his family, pets, favorite foods and pool.

Sunday, May 13, 2012

Dinner and a GoKart Ride

Well, Hans is still certainly in pain. It is still a 4 - 6. But we think the GMSCF shots may just be helping him feel a little bit better! He said he was up for an early Mother's Day Dinner last night. We went to Los Aguacotes where we ate well and Hans left the tip out of his own wallet! Then, we decided, what the heck, let's go to the Go Kart Track. Pretty excellent Mother's Day Eve if you ask me.

 So, it's Mother's Day! Happy Mother's Day to all the mama's out there. Especially to our moms and grandmas! Stephanie, Kathy, Jean, Diana and Shirley too! xoxo My heart is also with all the angel mamas out there. I read online today that Mother's Day was originally developed to honor mothers of fallen soldiers and to repair families destroyed by the civil war.

 It is not even hard for me to have Hans admitted today on Mother's Day. Although it is sad that we are leaving Kevin and Elle here to trek down to LA. I am just excited that we are helping him. And, I get to spend Mother's Day with my mom for the first time in about a dozen years since we moved out of state.

 I know a lot of people cannot fathom our sustained fight against NB. But, you know what, primal instinct just takes over. There's no "choice", no other desire. Sure, your heart and soul lament the "normal" everyday life experiences of your peers. Your heart laments and covets a healthy boy. But, there is a tidal wave of protective instinct and you do everything you think you can do for your boy, for your kid. It's a powerful force. You just look at your boy, his gigantic eyes, you see the fight is there, you see the hope and faith. You hear him talking about his future plans.  Lately his has been talking about the apartment he will get in the foothills one day!  You just do what you gotta do.


Anonymous said...


Thinking of you, Hans, as you enter this new phase of treatment!!!! Onward and forward!

Glad Mom-Grandma Stephanie is there, too, to celebrate with you!

Love and hugs,
Aunt Susy

Anonymous said...

Happy Mothers Day to You!
Took your Mom to Airport
this morning and today is your PAPA's Birthday as well.
Glad Han's is thinking of his
own apt!! I think he should advise
my Ms. M! Right now you are on your
way to the Lego store!!
Yea! Thing of you and
the new treatment.
Pat K.

Anonymous said...

Happy Mother's Day Lara!
I am so sorry to hear Hans is in pain, but so happy you all were able to go out for a fun Mother's Day celebration!! I will be praying for you all this week with the antibody treatment.
Love, Claire

Blair said...

What an amazing and inspiring mom you are! Just the perfect mom to lead this focused fight with your boy. My thoughts and prayers are with you in this new phase of treatment. Thank you for sharing your journey. Happy Mother's Day!

Anonymous said...

How sweet that Hansie left the dinner tip. A very special contribution to your mother's day dinner!!

Happy Mothers Day!
Love, Kathy xoxo

Anonymous said...

Glad Hans was up for a night out and glad your mom is with you to get through this first phase.
You're an awesome mom, with an awesome family. Lots of prayers that Hans pain goes away soon!
Love, hugs and prayers,
Aunt Holly and Uncle Michael

Anonymous said...

Hey Lara,

I'm so sorry to hear that Hans is in pain. I'm glad you guys got to have a great family night out before checking in for antibodies! I'll be thinking of and praying for you guys all week that things will go smoothly in the hospital and Hans will start feeling better SOON! Sending lots of love,