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Bakersfield, CA, United States
Hans was a busy, happy, sweet and fearless three year old when he was diagnosed with Neuroblastoma. He fought his disease like a "gladiator" for nearly 6 years. Hans was an animal lover to his core. He was 'guarded' at home by his three cats, Black, Orange and Cotton. He also had his Golden Retriever, Honey, to keep him company. Hans enjoyed swimming, biking, gardening, grilling (he had his very own grill!), horseback riding, playing video games, building Legos, and flipping between Nickelodeon, Cartoon Network and Animal Planet. Hans loved all members of his family and he was a loyal friend. He had to go through a lot of treatment in his life. But Hans powered through it. His attitude was let's get this done! His motivation was always to get back home, to his family, pets, favorite foods and pool.

Thursday, April 28, 2011

Bone Marrow Results Back - Normal!

It's been a long time coming, but it's all good. I didn't even put it out here, because I didn't really understand it, and I didn't have the right answers or questions. Back at our March Office Visit (before Hawaii), Dr. R. shared with us a red flag in Hans' blood work. His MCV value has been climbing over time (normal values are in the 80's and since January, Hans' MCV's have been over 100). This is the 'mean corpuscular volume' or size of the red blood cells. She explained that this could be a sign of Hans getting "pre-leukemia". One horrific side effect of NB's toxic treatments is a secondary cancer...commonly Leukemia (AML, which is more difficult to treat than ALL). It only happens in about 5% of our kids, and it tends to occur about 5 years out from diagnosis. So - here we are 4.5 yrs out getting this news. We were told to go about our business, go on our trip, proceed with the move, and to simply schedule bone marrows at our next round of scans. We did this. All I will say is that I've been pretty somber whenever I've thought about the possibility of this Leukemia. And I have thought of it frequently over the past 7 weeks or so. Thankfully Kevin wasn't worried. He just had a gut feeling that it would be okay.

Hans' marrows went through NB testing (negative), a test for MDS which is a syndrome that could lead to the pre-leukemia (if I am understanding this correctly), it was negative, and finally, he underwent Cytogenetic testing of the marrow. We just got those results back yesterday - normal. I am thanking God, as these results are just about all I have been able to pray for these past weeks.

Dr. Mosse explained to me that sometimes when kids have seen as much treatment as Hans has, the MCV value just grows. There are no side effects of that growth. I can put that mental fire out of my mind that has been burning there a while - and widen the scope of my prayers.

Monday, April 25, 2011

Still doing fine!





Hans and his Easter Basket.

Kevin and Elle on the Easter Egg "Hunt" in our front yard.


It's funny - the better and better Hans has been doing, the less I feel I have to say here on this blog!

The good news - Hans is okay! This Round (Round 22) is over. He dodged mouth sores or any significant side effects. I almost forgot about his Neulasta last week, but when we got an ANC back last Weds of 900, my memory kicked in and we booked him an appointment for the shot on Thursday. The HGB was good at 9.9 and the Platelets great at 300-something. Yay! We'll go in for labs locally on Wednesday of this week and we'll go down to TCH next week for the OV/check up before we start the next round.

We had a fun visit with my mom. I love it when she comes down for Spring break, because it's like we get to squeeze in a second spring break. We were mostly running around like crazy with I think 8 showings of our house last week.

Kevin flew out from CA for Easter Weekend and we joined Elle's girl Scout troop on a trip to the Schlitterbahn Waterslides in Galveston on Friday. It was good - and Hans did great. We just got a late start because I knew he wouldn't last the whole 10 hour the day the girls did. He did hold up well for about 5 hours of water sliding. FUN! He did clear the next height marker, so there were more slides for him to ride this time.

I guess we got lucky - we got two offers on our house and sealed the deal today. I'm happy that it all went quickly. It's pretty tricky to keep the house in 'showing' condition around the clock. We have found a neat home in Bakersfield. Everything might just work out smoothly, the kids can likely finish the year here and then we'll go join Kev in Cali.


In other news... My dear friend/Hans' godmother Roxie has spent just about the past week in the hospital even ICU with a bizarre and scary case of Bacterial Pneumonia. I'm so very happy that she turned a corner.


And...we got a new Nephew this weekend! Kevin's sister Anna and her husband Matt welcomed Baby Benjamin Michael on Thursday.

Monday, April 18, 2011

Going Just Fine/Having Fun






  • Not much to post here - Hans seems to be doing well! He is on Day 6 of Round 22 of MLN8237. He is squeezing his eyes together a bunch so I do think he's having a little bit of the light sensitivity/blurred vision side effect that comes and goes for him on this med. He hasn't had that one for a while. We'll get counts locally on Wednesday and make sure he is still doing well.

  • My mom is here for her spring break. She actually came down to watch the kids while we rode the BP MS 150. But, that didn't quite happen. I'm trying to get our registration fees rolled over to a ride in California in October.

  • We've been doing fun spring stuff...end of soccer, end of girl scouts, we went to see RIO! It was actually very cute. It seems like Hans is wanting to get out there a little more. A lot of times he said he'd rather wait til the movie comes out on DVD. So, way to go Hans...

  • Here are some pics... Hans found the first cherry tomato of spring, here he is with "party lights for your fingers" at the Cracker Barrel restaurant last night, Hans and Grandma Stephanie working on dyeing Easter Eggs, and finally Elle and Grandma S. at work on taxes and school work:)

  • That's about all we know right now... 26 more days o' school for Hans! He can't wait for the pools to open.

  • Kevin has been having a good time at the new job. We're all missing each other - but it's okay. He went up to his grad school stompin' grounds - Santa Cruz/UCSC to visit some friends this past wknd! We are all excited that such visits will be part of our not too distant future.

Monday, April 11, 2011

forgot to post pics w/ our pal Keiran



Hans and Keiran had a good time on Tuesday night. We got to go out and have some fun with our pals in South Jersey, before all the drama last week. Here's one pic of the two boys playing Lego Star Wars III. Hans and Keiran have a great connection despite their 6 year age diff. Hans is just two weeks older than his little bro, Braeden, whom he lost to NB in February '09.


Braeden is pictured above at the beach. We only got to meet him a couple of times in the halls of CHOP...


Made Counts



  • Just got back from TCH where we learned that Hans made counts! Yay. I didn't know which way that would go. Last week up at CHOP we had some borderline numbers, HGB of 9.0, Platelets of 53... Dr. Russell actually reserved Hans a transfusion spot at clinic today. Thank goodness we were able to blow out of there and back home for school instead. We had a quick weekend with Kevin home. Most of it was filled with home buying/selling paperwork and business. A couple of soccer games, and some glad-to-be-back-home favorite foods.

  • Here is a pic of Hans in his FAVORITE chair at clinic. I was taking Hans' picture and a nice gentleman offered to grab a shot of the both of us. Hans actually sits here, and only here, during our many clinic visits. He is a creature of habit I guess. Luckily, there have only been a couple of times when this seat has been occupied. When that happens, Hans waits it out and takes the spot as soon as it becomes available.

  • My blogger seems to have stopped recognizing paragraph breaks so I went with bullets today!

Thursday, April 07, 2011

stable with a false alarm

I'll just start off by telling you that all is well! Hans scans ultimately read Stable today. But, we did have a big scare. Hans was just out from bone marrow aspirations (a general anesthesia procedure) when Dr. Mosse came to find me. "There's a new spot." she said. The bottom drops out, and she goes on to explain that it is a spot above his left eyebrow. But, she explained that she had already ordered a CT/"spect"because she wasn't 100% convinced it was a progression. Sooo, over the next couple of hours I experienced a very specific level of NB hell. We got right into the CT scan, and quickly back up to our office visit. I was ultimately relieved to hear that Dr. Mosse's intuition was right. The CT scan revealed that Hans' original spot was there on the backof the skull, but the new spot was completely normal. This actually suggests there was some contaminant on that part of his head. It should read perfectly normal in a couple of days. Exhausted, Hans and I went to celebrate at MadMex. Chips, salsa and a strawberry margarita for me. It has been a week of rather extreme circumstances for us. Right now, the four of us are separated one three coasts (if you define 'coasts' loosely). Kevin is already at work in the new position in Bakersfield, putting an offer in on a house today, Elle is back in The Woodlands, staying with Kelly, one of her BFF"s, and here we are in Philly getting freaked out by contaminated MIBG Scan!

Monday, April 04, 2011

Scan Week

Hi! Just a quickie update. We are heading out on tomorrow morning for our MIBG scan in Philly. Just Hans and me this time! He's doing okay with that. He prefers "all four" of us to go. How sweet is that? This time around we also have bone marrow biopsy and aspiration. We are hoping for that elusive 'all clear' but will be relieved by, satisfied with and grateful for a "stable". Our house went on the market today! I hope we get some bites! We have been working nonstop around here!!! Both the kids have been helping me. The place looks good enough to stay:) We've been off the hook for labs this week - we'll just get them up there....so nice! That's about all that's going on! Thanks to Kelly and her family for taking care of Elle this week, and thanks to Alana for watching the kitties while we are gone.